By guest author
Licensed Christian Counselor
Specialist in Child & Adolescent Therapy
Life Training Christian Counseling
This week my great-grandmother died at the age of ninety-two. She lived a very full life, one including loving others and sharing the Gospel with those around her, so I’ve seen the fruit of her faith. Generational faith passed down from her, to my grandfather, to my dad, to me. While I wouldn’t say her death was unexpected in her old age, I can say my grief has caught me by surprise. Not only the grief, but the self-condemnation that showed up with it. Why is it at times when we are in pain that Satan attacks? I’d say it’s because he’s a “prowling lion,” coming to “steal, kill, and destroy” (1 Peter 5:8; John 10:19). For the sake of vulnerability, I want to share some of the feelings that have surfaced with my grief.
I’ve felt angry with myself for feeling sorrow in moments where I think I should be rejoicing. I’ve felt disappointed in myself for moments when my crying has interrupted whatever task I may have been trying to accomplish at the time. The truth is, I can be so incredibly patient with others while they’re walking through their pain, yet I have such a hard time giving myself the grace and space to walk through mine. Am I a hypocrite? I certainly don’t try to be. I believe it’s my humanness poking through in moments when I do the things I don’t want to do and don’t do the things I want to do, as Paul relates in Romans 7:19. My flesh and my spirit wrestle within me, and Satan continues to scheme against me to isolate me and pull me away from God. I don’t share my struggle for the sake of pity, but with the hope that if you relate to some of these things, you can find comfort in knowing you aren’t alone. I want to share with you some of the verses that are helping me move forward today.
“Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”Matthew 11:28
I’m going to give myself permission to be “weary and burdened.” I’m going to acknowledge my sadness freely and fully, with no shame attached, and I’m going to give myself permission to not “have it all together,” whatever that phrase even means.
I’m going to run to God. I’m going to sit in His presence, pray, sing, cry, and I’m going to let Him comfort me in the way that only He can. I’m going to speak His Word over me and allow it to replace the lies in my head, and I’m going to find peace in His faithfulness.
“But God said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”2 Corinthians 12:9
I’m going to accept God’s grace for the moments when my emotions require me to take up space, and I’m going to speak proudly of how I fall short, because the Lord is more than enough, and He receives the glory.
“Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.”Ephesians 6:13
I’m going to clothe myself in truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and the Spirit to fight against the flaming arrows of Satan. Accepting Christ doesn’t mean I will no longer be tempted, but it does mean I have the toolkit to withstand His attacks. I know that God is faithful, and although my sorrow may continue to pop up from time to time, the Lord will not let the attacks of Satan pull me out of His grasp.
Kayla Wright joined the counseling team at Life Training Christian Counseling in May of this year. The passion of her counseling work is to make a meaningful difference in the lives of TEENS AND PRE-TEENS.
Kayla is nationally licensed as a Christian Counselor by the National Christian Counselors Association, with an advanced board certification in Child & Adolescent Therapy. Kayla gained extensive experience and credibility in providing counseling to teens and pre-teens during her tenure on the staff of Revive Christian Counseling in Owensboro and Madisonville, Kentucky.
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